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02 Street dog: wild, skittish and angry

Last updated on January 31, 2024

When our children were small, we bought Walker from the local animal shelter. The officer who helped us told us she thought he would be a great family dog and that he was full size at his current 40 pounds. Ultimately, she was right that he became a dearly loved family member, but she was wrong about the 40 pounds–he was only half grown.

Having just met Walker he kept jumping up on us, biting at our wrists and acting very unruly. She explained that he was acting like the 6 month old puppy that he was, and that he had lived on the street until now. We sort of understood the puppy part, but we had no idea what being a street dog meant for a whole slew of behaviors he had learned while roaming. We later realized that was a very important piece of information, to say the least.

We took him home and discovered he would continually jump all over us, nip at our sleeves, bolt all of a sudden bark loudly enough to hurt our ears and was quite a lot to handle on a leash. It was very clear he considered a leash an affront to his being and he would chew through them if we left it within reach. If we let him off the leash, goodbye Walker! Wow could he cover ground, and he’d be gone in a moment.

The worst for him the thunder that was a daily occurrence in Florida. If we left him outside and it thundered, he would find a way over or under our fence every time. One time we came home from our daughter Julia’s graduation and found him in the front, leather seat of a Porsche a half mile from our home. The driver pulled up to get out, and Walker jumped in, across his lap and into the passenger seat. Oh yes, he was wet, muddy and stinky. That proud Porsche owner didn’t have the same warm feelings about Walker we did, to say the least. It took several hours for him to calm down once we got him home.

Walker was wild, skittish and sometimes angry. We never really knew what his first 6 months were like, but we could read between the lines. Loud noises must have confused and terrified and traumatized him. He was in a continual tussle for primacy of position: on top of everything else, he was an alpha male–and he was always trying to climb up the pecking order (usually at our youngest daughter Kirstie’s expense). The wildness mellowed and love began to fill the hole, but he was truly an affection pit for whom there was never enough petting or belly scratching or hugging. He needed 5 mile walks every day to burn off his immense energy.

If Walker had jumped muddy into your car, or jumped all over you, or nearly killed your cat, no one would think badly of your for disliking him, and maybe even calling him a “bad dog,” or “no good,” or perhaps “what a permissive owner.” We do the same thing to people. We see them acting badly and take a mental picture of them as bad or wild or to be avoided, when in reality the trail goes a long way back behind them. Behavior really makes sense, once you walk a mile in someone else’s moccasins. Don’t be so quick to judge by what your eyes see. It is a long movie with a lot of sequels this life, not a snapshot frozen in time. Behavior makes sense. If we take the time and patience to understand.

Besides, the trail goes a long way in front of us, too. We don’t have to be where we are. Walker became a champion walking and jogging companion. I trained him to “come” and he would have been a class A hunting dog, if I hadn’t given up hunting. Smart, fun, loving, affectionate, and well-behaved mostly. Things could and did still trigger him, but that didn’t make him bad, just traumatized and triggered.

A copper etching of Walker lives on my wall (snapshot of it above), and he holds a special place in my heart. We always thought Walker was a mutt, maybe half lab because he was black and half Irish setter because of his shape and long hair. A few years after he died I was walking along the Riverwalk by my house, and I had to blink hard and shake my head. It looked like someone was walking my deceased Walker on a leash right toward me. I told her, “We used to have a mutt that looked just like yours.” She was offended. Hers was a pure bred dog of high standing: a flat coat retriever. I had no idea, and went home and began learning about all the nobility of this magnificent breed we never really fully recognized because we labeled him a mutt and a street dog.

There are pure bred, high quality, deeply faithful friends all around who are sometimes skittish, angry, wild or worse. They are judged to be street dogs and mongrels, who should be avoided. I have sometimes felt I was treated that way. Have you? Walker taught me more than “you really can’t judge a book by its cover.” His life’s message is much stronger: you really can’t even judge a book by its first several chapters. The trail goes a long way ahead, and there is kindness, mercy and tender care ahead. The famous musical’s line is not a cliché: love changes everything.

“Walker” and “hope” are synonyms for me.

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6 Comments

  1. Shawn L Gilmore Shawn L Gilmore

    So far, I am intrigued. I am going to keep reading, I am anxious to see what’s happening through the rest of the story!
    Love & miss you my friend.

  2. Enjoying the story, made me think about all of us growing up not knowing a lot of what happened in the past. I was crying thinking of the struggles that your Mom and Dad had, Iver and Virginia had a baby girl named Laura that Iver was watching and she died from sids. It also broke up their marriage. I guess I am guilty of being so busy with life that I forget a lot of the past. Keep writing Brian you are awesome, Love you. Your older cousin Alice

    • I didn’t remember that about Iver and Virginia and Laura. I miss Iver. I hope Virginia is okay, and their kids. Thank you for the encouragement.

  3. Ruth Draeger Ruth Draeger

    Ha, ha, if you are the dog, I am wondering whose fancy car, Church? you got all muddy!
    It seems more than ever, people can read views they support on websites that are consistent…and they get so sold on a version of correct that it seems all reason, any kind heart…nothing outside their newly minted party line will be accepted.

    • Wow, Ruth, I never thought of that part of the metaphor, but it fits. Rule #1 for church-as-we-know-it: don’t have anything wrong with you! Along I come, jump in their car all muddy lol (I was never thrown out of the car, but it was clear that they didn’t enjoy my presence. It never occurred to me I was getting mud all over the fancy seats). / The second part: there are lots of analyses of why we are being dumbed down like this as a society. I have a couple, maybe three, quick takes:

      (1) Black and white thinking is a sign of addiction & dysfunction (I are one). Complexity is stressful and oversimplifying things makes us feel more in control. When I want to relax, I want to watch a movie where the good guys and the bad guys wear black and white so I can tell them apart, and I don’t want a murky, artful ending. I want my guy to win and the other to lose–before I fall asleep. But, we heal dysfunctional thinking in ourselves by beginning to learn the truth in shades of grey and, later, all the colors of the rainbow and all the hues and hybrid colors there are in this beautiful world God has created, “fearfully and wonderfully made.”

      (2) Party spirit is brokenness. Conflict can be good, if we treat each other kindly, respectfully and resolve it in healthy ways. But these days, conflict and arguing has become a blood sport on social media. The words of this song just hit my brain pan: “If God is our father and you are my sister, then why can’t we bother to really reach out and love one another? Why do we keep on acting the way we do? The way we treat each other really breaks God’s heart in two…” (Larry Norman).

      (3) There is a delusion on the land and, I think, “deluding spirits.” Divide and conquer is a classic military strategy. Abraham Lincoln is famously quoted as saying, “A house divided against itself cannot stand.” Of course, he was quoting Jesus who was responding to people saying HE was filled with the devil. His angle is really pretty funny: “Okay, let’s say I’m the devil. Why on earth would I be casting demons out of people and healing them? I wouldn’t be a very good devil, would I? I’d be a dumb devil who doesn’t understand I am cutting off the branch I am sitting on.” There is little casting out of demons in our land. I wonder if the devil has no need to waste personnel on America. I wonder if he goes, “They are so divided and so far from God, no need to spook them by showing up. Let’s let them wallow in the mud of their own making and stew in their own toxic juices they have cooked up together.”

      Thoughts?

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